Making better decisions...

Several things have happened in my family that are all good excuses to over eat....NOT...but its done anyway.  My daughter and son-in-law just took their oldest to Utah to go to school.  I can't believe that in a month this granddaughter of mine will be 19.  I swear just yesterday she was 4 months old!  Anyway....they asked if I would watch their youngest (he's 6) while they took the oldest.  We meet them at McDonald's to pick him up and say good bye to her.  I cried when they left, it felt like my own leaving the nest and I hated it then.  While my little grandson was here, he's all about his grandpa.  He loves that man.  For the most part we had a good time with him.  He was only here from Sunday thru Thursday without them.  They showed up Thursday to take him home. I HATE it when my daughter leaves, I get depressed, cry and I'm usually like that for days.  Guess what I do during those days of depression?!?!  You guessed it....I over eat. I have to fill that void somehow.  Hell I can't deal with the feelings, that hurts too bad.  This time was no exception.  I over ate yesterday ... but today I'm not going to do it.  Something interesting happened while my daughter was here.  We had gone to Walmart so they could pick up a couple things and her and her husband got candy bars.  On the way home she offered me some, twice.  I refused.  I really didn't want any.  Later her and I were sitting at my kitchen table and I was crying about how miserable I am looking like this and not having any self control.  She said something interesting to me.  She said, "Mom, do you have self control, I offered you a candy bar twice and both times you refused."  Never thought of it that way...NEVER!  She's right, I guess I do have self control.

So yesterday I started my usual eating and at some point I said out loud to no one but me, "enough already, no more!" and amazingly enough, I didn't eat anymore.  I fixed bbq chicken for dinner and that's it.  After dinner I have NOTHING....now that doesn't sound like much to others but for me, that's good!

So here's the plan for today:

Breakfast: a bowl of cereal and a bagel
Lunch: a salad with veggies in it and low fat ranch dressing
Dinner: chicken or turkey and veggies

If I want a snack I will either have ONE piece of string cheese and an apple, a quarter of a cantaloupe or a protein drink and lots of water today.  I will let you know tomorrow how this works out.

Later....