How do I do this???

I found out I have a great mind!  Honestly!  I can create things out of nothing and they work!  Let me explain....

When guilt sets in I can create a lump in my throat that makes me gag so I can't eat.  I even went to the doctors because I could feel it in my throat, but only me.  He couldn't.  I figured out I can create a lump (not a real one) in my throat when I feel guilty for eating things I shouldn't, crazy isn't it?!?!  It gets better...now I can cause myself to feel like I am having chest pains when I don't really.  Why?  GUILT!!  Isn't it amazing how great your mind is?

I truly stand in amazement on what my subconscious can do.  I'm not even aware that I do these things until this all happens.  Its not like I think "oh lets have some chest pains because I ate something I shouldn't and I feel gulity"  it just happens.  Here's a good for instance that I did yesterday!  This was a first.  My husband bought me this candy bar of some sort, I ate it.  Didn't think a thing about it.  About a half hour - hour later I started feeling weird and I can't even discribe what "weird" is.  I was feeling weak and having some chest pains, but even that wasn't like a heart attack chest pain thing, it was more like someone hit me in the chest kind of sore thing.  That was it, but it scared the life out of me.  I'm thinking my blood sugar has sky rocketed because of the candy bar or I was having a heart attack!  I truly was scared.  I wasn't home to be able to check my blood sugar or I would have.  I checked online for what kinds of reactions you can get from high blood sugar and I didn't have any of them.  I also wasn't having any "normal" symptoms of a heart attack either.  It lasted about 4 hours!  I walked around some store, wasn't short of breathe, wasn't sweating, didn't feel faint, nothing.  Just weird.  Then I got to thinking, I wonder if it my "guilty conscious" again.  I said a prayer and asked Heavenly Father if I was really having some sort of a reaction to something other then my own mind to take it away, immediately it was gone! 

OH FOR HEAVENS SAKE!!  Okay, so apparently the lump in my throat isn't cutting it, I have to manufacture scarier symptoms!  If I just don't eat the crap then the guilt won't set in stupid!! 

So my husband and I go to the grocery store for the usual Sunday stuff to eat, he said " you want some chips for tomorrow?"  I said "heck no!"  We walk around some more, he said "you want some cheese or chocolate covered almonds?"  NO again, he was amazed I didn't want chips (I love those things, they are my downfall) I'm thinking if guilt is playing this big part in my body just stay away from it and it won't happen!!  Gees...am I thick or what?  So for lunch today, its a turkey sandwich on some sort of multi grain bread (no cheese) and a banana.  Breakfast is either an egg sandwich or a cup of oatmeal and I'm leaning towards the oatmeal and for dinner it chicken, but I don't know how I'm going to fix it.  NO CHIPS, NO CHOCOLATE COVERED ALMONDS, NO CHEESE - nothing I shouldn't eat.

Later....