Having to get control..

Over eaters don't know the word "stop!"  Its a terrible addiction to have.  When you are a drug addict or you turn to alcohol or even pills you CAN give them up. But food....not so much!  You have to eat everyday of your life and not once a day either.  Its a constant battle of what do I eat, how much do I eat and on and on.  When  you are an over eater, at times for me, it seems there is never enough.  Thank goodness I don't do that all the time, just every once in a while.  Never the less, I over eat "something" to look like this and of course not exercising doesn't help.

I had my husband buy fruit, not junk for me.  Then my little grandson came to stay with us for about a week.  I, of course, want to spoil him and I bought all the stuff he likes, pop tarts, breakfast bars, ice cream, mac and cheese, spaghettio's and whatever else he likes.  He's 6 years old and of course he doesn't eat like I do!  I ask him if he's hungry, nope.  I honestly wish I had the stomach of a 6 year old...anyway, I can already see me rationalize eating some of the stuff I got for him...."he'll never eat all of this, one won't hurt" HONESTLY....what the hell am I thinking?!?!  No maybe 'ONE' won't hurt but who are we kidding, can I honestly stop at one???

I noticed last night, that I was eating one thing after another.  String cheese (2 of those), an ice sandwich, a little bag of m&m's, some cantaloupe.  See what I mean??  I feel like I have no control.  I honestly have to tell myself to STOP for cryin' out loud!!  Holy crap you aren't hungry you are bored,  just deal with it and go on....gees....

Dr Phil says we hang on to whatever is going on in our life because it works for us.  I like it when he says "how's that working for you?"  its not!!  I saw last night where he helped Fergie break through to what is wrong with her, she wants approval.  I want to know what makes me over eat.  What is it that I keep hanging onto to stay like this?  Is it one thing in my life that made me like this or is it many things all rolled into one?
I wish I could figure it out....

Hopefully you will be able to figure out what demons you have in your life to stop doing what you are doing.  I hope and pray the same thing for me.  My best friend told me she use to pray and ask for her mind to be healed.  I need to ask for the same thing. 

Later....